Alive and well

[VincentM]

Hey all, just a post to say I'm still alive... feels like forever since I've make any sort of post on here....

School has been rough, I'm failing cause I have no emotional or physical energy when it comes to school, and no motivation. Turns out my parents are getting a divorce, mom found out on the 3rd, I found out on the 6th. So a lot has happened.... I'm so tired ALL THE TIME, and this may be amplified by the T, may not be.....

but that's a brief 'what I've been up to' for now!

[elliebean]

Glad you're still with us.

Maybe you need a break from school.

The last time I felt the need to reassure people I was still alive, I was having a really difficult time at school too. Now I really wish I had taken more time off. At the time I was afraid if I stopped, even for a short time, I'd never be able to carve out another space for it in my daily existence. So I tried to continue with my familiar routine and soon realized that I could no longer keep up. My grades suffered horribly, as you can imagine. I ended up failing one class and never made up one of my incomplete classes. I never managed to pay the tuition for that last semester, either. If I had taken that year off instead, I could just go back when I'm ready and only have to pay for those classes once.

[VincentM]

I've been telling my mom for the better part of 9 months how much I need a break, and have been met with hostilities about it.... I told her how I'm failing, how emotionally, mentally and physically spent I am, and how much I just wish i could curl up and die..... I hate my school, and how I am ALWAYS there, no matter if I'm at home or work, as both are at the school. I don't have money to pay my loans because I work minimum wage for 16 hours a week..... At the school.... I can't get another job without suffering my grades.... but as it is, I'm too far behind to salvage anything, since school is out at the end of next week.. not this coming one. Thankfully some friends have offered me a spot at their home, with understanding that I will be getting a job, and helping out around the house.

I just want to be able to enjoy myself, and I don't right now. I hate scraping by just to have a meal, and I hate I have to put on a happy face when at school, when all I really wanna do is cry and scream and throw a tantrum

[nexyjo]

it's good to see you vincent, i've missed you!

i hope things change course for you.

[Amy Lynn]

Sorry I haven't called Vincent. I haven't had a chance to get up to Seattle since I emailed you. I will definately make plans to get up there soon. Hang in there. It will get better, it always does. I'm going nuts waiting for September myself so I can start school. I have a lot going on at the moment, but look forward to hanging out and letting you vent. Sorry things are so bleak at the moment. Don't let it wear you down.

Amy

[Megan]

Hey Vincent!

I've been wondering where you had gotten yourself off to! Lets set up a time for lunch or dinner, my treat so we can finally hang out. I can come down there if you do not have transportation or we can meet up anywhere between Everett and Seattle. My weekend is every sun-mon-tues which work best for me. Hope to finally get to meet ya

[VincentM]

Amy, No worries! You have my number!

Megan, sent you a message!

[VincentM]

Well I had fun today! Had a nice lunch with a nice gal, and made some items for my shop! My shop has some new stuff on it, so check it out... could use the views

[VincentM]

Well it appears I will be leaving school after all.... My dad, who is in the process of divorcing my mom, has decided to dump EVERYTHING on her, and move out of Montana and back to Pennsylvania.... Yesterday.... He is going to contest her in court for the Division of Property, as he doesn't agree with my mom's divisions.... One of the things he relinquished was a part of my student loans.... So, yeah... thankfully I wanted to get away, and wasn't just getting ripped out..... but this means I'm not going to be able to go back....

Oh well... shit happens for a reason, it helps you grow strong and helps you define what path to go and when.

[Andina]

WOW, keep up your great attitude.

[VincentM]

I have WAY to much free time now, and will be working on getting myself a new job... Thankfully a nice couple took me in, and have been really nice to me, but not in a 'too good to be true' sort of way.

Currently working on::
• Job
• Satyr Legs &headpiece

[VincentM]

Here I am again... LMAO god I'm tired, and busy doing what ever odd job for friends I can to scrape up cash, and it's got me running around like a chicken with my head cut off

[elliebean]

Glad you're here, Vincent.

[VincentM]

I've got a lot of catching up to do...

[Someone Else]

I have a tough time in school when I can't keep my mind on my work. It sounds like you have more on your plate than I do.

[VincentM]

I had::

Being too poor to have food in the house
Bills for surgery and my bank
Stress of being in school
Job
Looking for another job
Parents divorcing
Not feeling OK with being sexually active yet wanting sex badly

....yeah... about sums it up