Monty wrote:Well, hello everyone.
I guess first things first. Im a genetic guy, I consider myself to be a gay man and ive recently met and, well im still a lil bit unsure if its dating yet or just, playing around..i dunno. But I recently met a rather cute guy who let me know after a few days that hes a ftm. Considers himself to be a "submissive gay man, in a females body". But since hes just adoreable and actually has the same dark sense of humor i have.., I cant see saying no to dating.
Ive really NO experience with this and its been.. a rather stressing past few weeks. It took me years to stop my own self hatred, hating being gay. Now ive met this guy and im having a really hard time grasping a lot of things. Im gay, I was attracted to a man, am attracted to him, while hes very passable, the fact whats in his pants is different than mine bothers me a lot.
I find it really hard to talk about this with him and am more than a bit afraid to talk openly. Like i might say the wrong thing, offend him and since things got rather.."hot and heavy" last weekend and i stopped it from going anywhere, since.. well, what id normally have done, i cant do. Dont know what he expects that i should do.
What can i say, i just dont want to embarass myself here. I know im going to eventually have to have the talk with him. but i feel like im 12, not 30 all of a sudden, just unsure of everything and really not wanting to screw this up. I did reconnect with an old friend who is ftm and has been so for a long time, but hes rather useless with his advice.
I guess im just looking for advice and wanting to know if anyone here has been in my shoes.
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